Most of the readers of my blog know what a miracle Wyatt is in our life. For those who don't, you will now. A year ago this week, I went to Dr. Gunnala's office for the first "fertility" appointment. I still can't believe it was a year ago. Wow!! As I was walking with a friend this morning she was asking me about it and it seemed that I forgot some of it. Hence, I wanted to write down a few thoughts.
Anyway, Jason and I had tried for a year on our own, three months on Femara with my OB/GYN then we went to Dr. Gunnala. We did one cycle (women...you know what I'm talking about) where they just ran a bunch of tests but did nothing because they wanted to see what my body actually did. In the meantime, Jason was also getting tested too. Talk about STRESSFULL!! I was teaching and my heart just wasn't into my students as it usually was because I was giving my all to trying to get pregnant. I had to ask my aide, Alex, to watch my class the last hour or the last thirty minutes so many times or I had to just miss a day here and there. It was horrible because certain things had to be done on certain days...talk about you can't plan your life! I was going in every week, sometimes a few times every week. I was so stressed out and kept praying and fasting that everything would work out and I could be my happy self again. My friend who went to the same doctor kept telling me, "Once you get that positive test, you will forget about how hard it is to go through this."
The very next cycle (Feb/March) we did IUI and it worked! I couldn't believe it when they called me with the results (blood test). I had taken a pregnancy test that morning just so I knew and it was positive. It was such a surreal feeling and I was still in shock! Honestly, my friend was right. Once I got that positive test I forgot all the tears that were shed...well almost (even though I never thought I would). I was still nervous because I know that things could happen so early but everything worked out. They never pinpointed what was wrong even though we have our inklings.
Nine months (ten actually..oh wait, Wyatt was early) and seven weeks later I have the cutest little bundle of joy ever! (Sorry to all mothers who think their kid is the cutest.) I'm still trying to figure this mother thing out but am having fun while doing it. Wyatt is still trying to figure out being outside of the womb but he's getting there. He is on an afternoon nap strike and doesn't like to sleep so he hasn't smiled yet (because I think he is so tired...overtired) but one day he will. As for now, we are just loving getting to know each other (oh, and daddy is doing a great job as well...probably even better than mommy).
I have a love/hate relationship with the books. I'm glad that I have read practically every one out there but it gets confusing because they all contradict each other. ARGHHHH!!! I get frustrated when people say their baby eats every 3 hours, sleeps during naptime, AND sleeps through the night. I think, "What am I doing wrong?" Well, I guess we are all doing the best we can and one day get to a schedule that works. I call different people on different days to see what they did. Somehow everyone forgets but my sister is a wealth of knowledge...thanks Becca! I think I am trying to hard. I guess I just have to go with my gut and my heart to do what's best!
Side note: Isn't it funny how all of a sudden you start calling each other mommy and daddy? It just feels so natural now. haha And I never thought that I would talk so silly but that has happened too. I try to use my normal voice but it is so fun to talk high and low to Wyatt. :)
Here are a few pictures that I never posted of Wyatt that we had taken in the hospital.
I'm posting what his schedule is like just so I remember if anyone asks:
He pretty much does the EASY (eat, activity, sleep) routine but sometimes it is harder to keep him awake. He will stay awake anywhere between 40-60 minutes. Sometimes he goes three hours but that is usually in the morning. By the afternoon he is ready to eat every 2 1/2 hours (sometimes 2). He gets cranky at dinner time so it is difficult to get dinner fixed. But I feel more in tune with his cries now that we are on a routine because I know when I last fed and changed him or how long he slept and should sleep more. (Should I wake him because he is due for a feeding but actually should sleep more because it took him a long time to go back to sleep? Decisions are the worst!)
I will post some more updated pics soon because he has definitely changed...he is so big now!
I sure love my Wyatt!!
5 comments:
I didn't know the whole story of waiting for Wyatt. I have been blessed not to have any troubles, but it sure does make him more of a miracle.
I remember feeling like you as a new mom. It is so hard, but it gets better. I say the first sixth months are so hard for me and then I figure it out and my babies figure it out and it becomes easier. Try not to compare and don't think of being a mother as being perfect. Every mom is different and perfect for their baby. I have friends who probably think my methods in motherhood are awful and some who say I am great at it. We all are different and every baby is different so take it a day at a time and you will have it all figured out soon. Don't read too many books, you have your natural instincts and you can do it however you want.
Oh my goodness, Kate, those pictures from the hospital are some of the best newborn pics I've ever seen. Seriously. I had no idea you went through such a hard time to get him. Even through the hard times they bring, it is SO worth it! We tried for 3 years for Cooper, and luckily we got pregnant right before I went to the fertility doctor, so we never had to go through that. You're doing great, and don't worry about what every book says...don't compare yourself to everyone else. Just keep loving him and doing your best! :)
You are such a good blogger. Thanks for sharing this post. It's hard in the beginning.. I read all the books too. I would get excited with the new advice and realize a few days/weeks later that it was not working for my little one. He still can be unpredictable. He'll be doing great on a schedule for a few weeks and then he's totally off. It's rough, but the most rewarding thing in the world. Just wait till he smiles at you!!! It changed me forever! Love you, Kate! I still need to come see you, but Bray's been sick these last two weeks. :( Soon!
I didn't know the whole story either but I think that just makes it even more special. I have a lot of friends who have been to that same doctor also (the magic doctor!).
The best advice I was given was actually by my pediatrician. He basically told me to trust my mother's instincts and go with that. And that every baby is different but you will know what works for yours!
And I'm wishing I had gotten those pictures in the hospital now! Yours are adorable!!
Yay for Wyatt! I remember the major stress you were going through at the time. And wasn't it kind of on the down low so you didn't have many people to commiserate with (besides me!)? It was a lot of work to get him here, but he sure is a cutie. It's amazing how much life changes when you go from a family of 2 to a family of 3. Justin and I still comment, "What did we used to talk about before kids?".
And I'll tell you what, just going through the Gunnala experience for a second time, it's still totally worth all the hassle--even though this time I had to find babysitters ALL THE TIME!!
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